Enough..

Okay, I've had enough of this funk I've been in. I've thought a lot about it the last couple days and I'm realizing that most of my problem is that I can't quiet my mind. I'm not happy with school, not sure what I want to do in a year when I graduate, not sure what's going on in my relationship, frustrated with my performance at the marathon, etc., etc. I have all this stuff that's driving me nuts and because I can't sort any of it out individually right now it's been bringing me down. So, ENOUGH! I'm going to deal with things one day at a time. I want to be my normal mostly happy self..this person I am right now is irritating me. :)

Today I'm doing a 20 minute easy run per the recovery plan I found on the marathon website. This is the last week I'll follow it. I walked enough of the marathon that I feel comfortable starting training for my half next week. That and if I don't start doing something concrete I'm going to become one really cranky biatch. ;)

Since all my Saturdays until the end of July are taken by clinical rotation, I'm doing long runs on Sundays. That means the informal group with no aid stations. Luckily most of my "long" runs (funny how long back in January and long now are totally different) until then are below 10 miles, so I should be good with my Amphipod bottle pack and a gu or sport beans. I'm going to also make an effort to meet with the informal weekly group on Tues. & Thurs. so that I can get in some good quality runs with other people. I like running by myself too, but sometimes I just want to have that extra push that running with a group gives you.

I have managed to not have an appetite pretty much since the marathon. Now, normally that would be bad, but I am still eating enough calories. What it has been allowing me to do is be a little more choosy about what I'm eating, and it's paying off. I've been eating lots of fruit and whole grain stuff, and avoiding heavy fatty foods as much as possible. And I feel better for it and am not gaining any weight back. I've been drinking lots of water and tea and I'm really feeling good physically. I'm hoping that once I start training again here next week I can start losing weight again. I'd like to get down another 20 pounds by October, which is a pretty reasonable goal. Then I'd only really need to lose about another 20 before I'd be at a really healthy ideal weight (let's set that goal for next June at San Diego). I haven't really gone by poundage so much lately as I have by clothes and inches. And I know that with cross-training and strength training, etc., that I'll probably end up weighing a little more but looking better. I bought two new running skirts from the place I got the one at the expo, and they arrived yesterday. Normally I'm hugely critical about my legs (okay, my whole body), but these skirts looked CUTE! They hit my thighs in the right spot and make them look really nice and muscular. Nothing to pick you up like looking good in a miniskirt. ;)

So, I'm feeling better today, and I'm hoping to keep it going. Here's to a happy remainder of the day and a bright outlook for tomorrow!